{"id":8954,"date":"2022-05-21T18:32:51","date_gmt":"2022-05-21T15:32:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/?page_id=8954"},"modified":"2022-05-23T00:57:22","modified_gmt":"2022-05-22T21:57:22","slug":"dayanismaya-ilham-mektuplar","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/dayanismaya-ilham-mektuplar\/","title":{"rendered":"Dayan\u0131\u015fmaya \u0130lham Mektuplar"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-page\" data-elementor-id=\"8954\" class=\"elementor elementor-8954\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-8d608f9 elementor-section-content-top elementor-section-stretched elementor-section-full_width elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"8d608f9\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;stretch_section&quot;:&quot;section-stretched&quot;,&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[]}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-no\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-ca19de3\" data-id=\"ca19de3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-3fc1868 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"3fc1868\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! 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elementor - v3.6.5 - 27-04-2022 *\/\n.elementor-heading-title{padding:0;margin:0;line-height:1}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title[class*=elementor-size-]>a{color:inherit;font-size:inherit;line-height:inherit}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-small{font-size:15px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-medium{font-size:19px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-large{font-size:29px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xl{font-size:39px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xxl{font-size:59px}<\/style><h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">DAYANI\u015eMAYA \u0130LHAM MEKTUPLAR<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-0023e4e elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"0023e4e\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[],&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-a7edbf7\" data-id=\"a7edbf7\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7322743 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"7322743\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.6.5 - 27-04-2022 *\/\n.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-stacked .elementor-drop-cap{background-color:#818a91;color:#fff}.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-framed .elementor-drop-cap{color:#818a91;border:3px solid;background-color:transparent}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap{margin-top:8px}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap-letter{width:1em;height:1em}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap{float:left;text-align:center;line-height:1;font-size:50px}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap-letter{display:inline-block}<\/style>\t\t\t\t<p>Sevgili Suzan,<br \/>Bundan en az 10 y\u0131l \u00f6nceydi. Ben hen\u00fcz 20\u2019lerimin ortas\u0131nda, sen de belki hen\u00fcz 30\u2019lar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda iki gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nd\u0131k. \u00dczerimde \u00e7ocuk sahibi olmakla ilgili anne, aile, arkada\u015f, doktor ve belki daha \u00e7oklar\u0131ndan olu\u015fan bir kitlenin bask\u0131s\u0131 hissediyordum. Ortakla\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 bir nokta vard\u0131, o da 30 hadi bilemedin 35\u2019ime kadar bir \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmam gerekti\u011fiydi. Etraf\u0131mda b\u00f6yle hem fikir olan bir grupla \u00e7evrelendi\u011finden muhtemelen, s\u00f6ylenenlerin do\u011frulu\u011fundan \u015f\u00fcpheye d\u00fc\u015fmekte zorlan\u0131yordum&#8230; Ta ki bir g\u00fcn aram\u0131zda ge\u00e7en \u015fu k\u0131sa diyalo\u011fa kadar:<br \/>&#8211; Sen de \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmakla ilgili gecikece\u011fimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor musun?<br \/>&#8211; Hay\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben do\u011furmayaca\u011f\u0131m.<br \/>&#8211; Aa neden?<br \/>&#8211; \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc istemiyorum.<br \/>Vaay&#8230; Hayat\u0131mda duydu\u011fum en etkili \u201cistemiyorum\u201dlardan biriydi. \u0130lk kez bir gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n ihtimale mahal vermeyen kararl\u0131 bir tonla, biyolojik olarak \u00e7ocuk sahibi olmay\u0131 istemedi\u011fini dile getirdi\u011fini duyuyordum. Bu konuda \u00e7ok nettin. Kad\u0131n olarak hayattaki duru\u015funla her zaman g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ve net oldu\u011fun gibi&#8230; O zamanki dar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ve \u015fuan rahats\u0131z edici buldu\u011fum \u201cneden\u201d sorum i\u00e7in de \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim.<br \/>\u00d6zetle kendimi sorgulad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e istemedi\u011fim ama dile getiremedi\u011fim bir iste\u011fin, senin taraf\u0131ndan seslendirilmi\u015f olmas\u0131 benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetliydi. Takip eden y\u0131llarda ben de rahat\u00e7a \u00e7ocuksuz bir hayat\u0131 tercih etti\u011fimi s\u00f6yleyebilmeye ba\u015flad\u0131ysam, bunda senin de pay\u0131n var. Te\u015fekk\u00fcrler&#8230;<br \/>N.A<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-f0a4a64 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"f0a4a64\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[],&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-7f282b9\" data-id=\"7f282b9\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-b571138 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"b571138\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>Sevgili Nur,<br \/>\u0130nsanlar\u0131n hayat\u0131nda \u00f6nemli d\u00f6nemler olur, bu d\u00f6nemlerde insanlar bir de\u011fi\u015fim s\u00fcrecine girerler. Bamba\u015fka bir insan olmaya giden yolda ad\u0131mlar atar, bedenine, ruhuna, varolu\u015funa a\u011f\u0131r gelen, uymayan, onu bask\u0131layan y\u00fckleri \u00fczerinden atarak yol almaya ba\u015flarlar. \u00d6nemli bir d\u00f6neme\u00e7. Hem keyifli hem de sanc\u0131l\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc zor ve cesaret isteyen bir \u015fey. Ve ben hayat\u0131mdaki bu d\u00f6neme\u00e7lerden birine sayende girdim. \u015eu anda oldu\u011fum insan olmamda pay\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck. Kendimi, inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri sorgulamamda ve bu hayatta kendim i\u00e7in bamba\u015fka kap\u0131lar a\u00e7mamda yard\u0131mc\u0131 oldun, bana bu cesareti verdin ve hatta asl\u0131nda elimden tuttun denebilir. \u015eu an fiziksel olarak bamba\u015fka yerlerde olsak da bu ge\u00e7mi\u015f, aram\u0131zda bir ba\u011f olu\u015fmas\u0131na neden oldu. Belki son d\u00f6nemlerde neler ya\u015f\u0131yoruz, nas\u0131l\u0131z bilmiyoruz, nas\u0131l s\u00fcre\u00e7lerden ge\u00e7ti\u011fimizden haberdar de\u011filiz ama tekrar y\u00fczy\u00fcze gelme f\u0131rsat\u0131m\u0131z oldu\u011funda o ba\u011f\u0131n olu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flayan samimiyetle yine hasret giderece\u011fimize eminim. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce de olsa iletti\u011fin Sisifos\u2019un selam\u0131n\u0131 da cebime koyarak ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu zor ve umutsuz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlar\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck mutluluklarla ve tesad\u00fcflere kendi \u00e7ap\u0131mda anlamlar y\u00fckleyerek biraz olsun a\u015fmaya ve umut etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Mesela bu mektup \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bana yollad\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fcn asl\u0131nda benim do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u00fc \ud83d\ude42 Arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011fa emek verme ve minnet etmenin g\u00f6stergesinin illa do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc ezbere bilmek oldu\u011funa inanmam, zaten uzun zaman oldu dedi\u011fim gibi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcyoruz ama bu tesad\u00fcf kula\u011f\u0131ma bir \u015feyler f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yor. Beni mutlu eden ve beni iyi hissettiren \u015feyler&#8230; Kafamda seni hayat\u0131mda \u00f6nemli bir yere koydu\u011fum an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 canland\u0131r\u0131yor. Benim b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme \u015fahit oldun asl\u0131nda. Ve bu \u015fahitlik, as\u0131l toplumu olu\u015fturdu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenilen kan ba\u011f\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 akrabal\u0131kla a\u00e7\u0131klanacak bir \u015fey de\u011fil ve bu y\u00fczden benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmde \u00e7ok daha k\u0131ymetli. Ayr\u0131ca biricik ve kendine has dinami\u011fi olan bir hadise. O sebeple de benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00f6zel ve \u00f6zel kalmaya devam edecek. Hayat\u0131mda de\u011fi\u015fimin, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn hep baki kald\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131r\u0131m, h\u00e2l\u00e2 bir \u015feylerimi de\u011fi\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, baz\u0131 y\u00f6nlerimin de\u011fi\u015fimine tan\u0131k olmaktan son derece memnun oluyorum. Ailemin yan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan beri de\u011fi\u015fmeyi koymu\u015ftum kafama. Ve bu fitili ate\u015flememde bana destek oldun, sen resmen benim su\u00e7 orta\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n \ud83d\ude42 hayat\u0131mda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n iz ve -hani derler ya ilk a\u015fklar unutulmaz diye- ilk su\u00e7 ortaklar\u0131 unutulmaz. Sana \u201cNur abla\u201d diye seslenmeye \u00e7ok al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, bunu k\u0131rmak i\u00e7in bu mektupta seni sadece ad\u0131nla, \u201cNur\u201d diye \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yorum ve bu mektubu kendi se\u00e7ti\u011fim isimle imzal\u0131yorum.<br \/>Hayat\u0131mdaki izine ve su\u00e7 ortakl\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u00fckranla, umut erdem<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-338aece elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"338aece\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[],&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-f4d2f10\" data-id=\"f4d2f10\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-52aea88 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"52aea88\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>\u201cBence insan\u0131n kalbinde de kendine ait bir yer olmal\u0131\u201d demi\u015ftin. Bu c\u00fcmleyi \u00e7ok sonra anlad\u0131m, sonra \u00e7ok ba\u015fka bir g\u00f6zden anlad\u0131m, sonra bir defa daha&#8230; \u00c7ok tuhaf, \u00e7ok uzak gelmi\u015fti bu bana. Konu\u015farak, anlatarak, dinleyerek, sorarak, cevaplayarak ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnler vard\u0131. Buldu\u011fum, bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bulamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131klar\u0131m. 24 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Zamanla sessizle\u015fince, zaman biraz sessizle\u015ftirince, sessizlikle de durabilince bu s\u00f6z\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131m s\u0131k s\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7imde bir yerde bana ait olan, kirlisiyle ak\u0131yla bana ait olan bir yer. Sevgili G, \u201canlad\u0131m\u201d biraz laf\u0131n geli\u015fi. Anlamaktay\u0131m, anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanmaktay\u0131m daha yak\u0131ndan ifade ediyor. Ba\u015fka s\u00f6zlerin de var b\u00f6yle, s\u00f6ylendi\u011fi an i\u00e7ime sinmemi\u015f ama bir yerde \u201caaaa\u201d dedirten. Epey ho\u015f bir \u015fey bu. Seninle konu\u015fmak ufkumu a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f. \u0130yi ki vars\u0131n.<br \/>B.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-3aec40d elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"3aec40d\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[],&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-828ffd3\" data-id=\"828ffd3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-73ed136 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"73ed136\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>Sevgili Arkada\u015f, birlikte ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz zamanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce ve hala bir \u015fekilde devam eden arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 illa gerektirmedi\u011fi kanaatine vard\u0131m. &#8216;B\u0131rakmamam&#8217; ile ilgili fevri \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131n, ana ak\u0131m k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcn i\u015fgalci \u00f6zelli\u011fini bana hat\u0131rlatman beni kendime yakla\u015ft\u0131ran bir yere getiriyor sanki. \u00c7ok mutluyum senle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in.. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bana diren\u00e7 ve g\u00fc\u00e7 verdi. \u015eans, iyicil b\u00fcy\u00fcler bizimle olsun!<br \/>Ruya<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-1d7eebe elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"1d7eebe\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;jet_parallax_layout_list&quot;:[],&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-bb3956b\" data-id=\"bb3956b\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-385164f elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"385164f\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>Sevgili Hulya,<br \/>Hayatimin karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir d\u00f6nemi. 25 ya\u015f\u0131nda kocadan ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, i\u015fsiz, \u00fcmitsiz ve<br \/>hatta umars\u0131z; k\u0131sacas\u0131 berbat bir d\u00f6nemindeyim \u00e7eyrek as\u0131rl\u0131k \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn. Her \u015feyim<br \/>yarida kalmis; e\u011fitim, i\u015f hayat\u0131, evlilik. Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131mi bilmez haldeyim. Yeniden mi<br \/>\u00fcniversiteye girsem, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya m\u0131 ba\u015flasam, bir beceri mi edinsem? Evlili\u011fin bana<br \/>uygun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum en az\u0131ndan o konuyu kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bir daha<br \/>acmamacasina. Ama ya digerleri&#8230; Onlara da cevab\u0131m haz\u0131rd\u0131: Ben ise yaramazin<br \/>tekiyim; hi\u00e7 bir \u015feyi beceremem, neye kalkissam elime y\u00fcz\u00fcme bulastiriyorum. Yani<br \/>benden bir halt olmaz diyip, gel gitler aras\u0131nda sikismis; a\u011f\u0131r bir depresyonun<br \/>e\u015fi\u011findeydim. Hareketlerim de\u011fi\u015fmis , obsesif kompulsif davran\u0131\u015flar sergilemeye<br \/>ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ve bir cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc ge\u00e7mi\u015f g\u00fcnlerden biri \u00e7\u0131kip geldi; o sendin<br \/>H\u00fclya! Bo\u011fazi\u00e7i \u00fcniversitesinin psikoloji bolumu \u00f6\u011frencisi&#8230;<br \/>\u00c7ok sevdi\u011fim ve inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir arkada\u015fimdin sen. Senin<br \/>hayat\u0131ma girmen benim milatim olacakti ancak o g\u00fcnlerde ne sen ne de ben bunu bilemezdik. Seninle sorunlar\u0131m\u0131 payla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a hayat\u0131mda de\u011fi\u015fikler olmaya ba\u015flamisti bile. \u00d6nce i\u015f aramaya cesaret edip i\u015f bulmu\u015ftum. Sonra \u00fcniversite s\u0131nav\u0131na girmeye karar verdim liseyi bitirdikten sekiz y\u0131l sonra&#8230; tak\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne de gitmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m art\u0131k. Kolay olmayacakti tabii. Ama sen vard\u0131n ya Hulya. Sana guveniyordum; s\u00f6ylediklerini hayat\u0131ma ge\u00e7irmemek sana ihanet etmek gibi geliyordu bana. Ama sana olan bu inanc\u0131m ve sadakatim ise yaramisti. Kendime guvenmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u00dcniversite s\u0131nav\u0131n\u0131 kazan\u0131p \u00e7ok istedi\u011fim edebiyat fak\u00fcltesine girmi\u015ftim. Sen fark\u0131nda olmadan beni u\u00e7urumun kenar\u0131ndan cekip almayi basarmistin H\u00fclya ama ben sana olan minnettarligimi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc anlatmay\u0131 ba\u015faramad\u0131m hala&#8230;<br \/>Ayse<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>DAYANI\u015eMAYA \u0130LHAM MEKTUPLAR Sevgili Suzan,Bundan en az 10 y\u0131l \u00f6nceydi. Ben hen\u00fcz 20\u2019lerimin ortas\u0131nda, sen de belki hen\u00fcz 30\u2019lar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda iki gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nd\u0131k. \u00dczerimde \u00e7ocuk sahibi olmakla ilgili anne, aile, arkada\u015f, doktor ve belki daha \u00e7oklar\u0131ndan olu\u015fan bir kitlenin bask\u0131s\u0131 hissediyordum. Ortakla\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 bir nokta vard\u0131, o da 30 hadi bilemedin 35\u2019ime kadar bir \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmam [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"page-templates\/fullwidth-content.php","meta":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/8954"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8954"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/8954\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/politikadaiyilikhali.org\/tr_tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8954"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}